About the Grovetender

Birthdate: 1/29/2000
Pronouns: she/they
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INFJ, 6w5
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hi, i'm unfortunateaccident, but please call me UA. i'm a 24 year old emo edgelord ghost girl living in and around philadelphia, PA, US. i have a chemistry bachelor's degree and a math minor, but currently i'm a NEET due to disability and f*mily circumstance.

if i were to briefly describe myself, i would say i am perpetually low energy yet easily excitable. i perk up sooo quickly as soon as something intellectually/emotionally stimulates me, whether it's some grandiose big thing or some stupid trivial detail. i'm introverted and hypersensitive, i'm prone to dramatic mood swings and social withdrawals. i am an observer; i obsessively (over)analyze all information about any situation to draw the most nuanced, sincerest conclusions i can for myself. basically i'm near-constantly pensive and introspective. i am extremely passionate and i love with my whole heart and soul.

i have a lot of illnesses that shape my reality. ASD, C-PTSD, GAD, panic disorder, agoraphobia, social phobia, and EDS ⧉ to name them. abuse trauma and anxiety are quite difficult to manage, while EDS is pretty crippling physically. for now i still live with my toxic f*mily who don't recognize my identity or disabilities so most of my days are spent kinda in survival mode. nevertheless, i'm determined to escape, heal, and thrive eventually. hopefully you'll stick around while i take this journey of self-discovery through design and writing.

i have a pretty complicated relationship with the internet. when i was 4 we got this crappy windows xp computer in one of those classic computer cabinets and everything. i ended up using it the most, spending years playing 90s educational cd roms and assorted flash games. when i eventually did branch out into the net, my stupid impressionable 9 year old self got swept up by 4chan (8chan later), newgrounds, and flipnote hatena. as you could imagine i'm very disillusioned with toxicity on the internet by now, so i've avoided all social media platforms like the plague up until neocities in 2023. i do use discord to have conversations and calls with friends, though, which i don't count as a platform. i started going online in 2009-2011, so i basically missed out on Y2K internet, therefore i wouldn't necessarily call this website project of mine a nostalgic thing or a web revival, but i support the movement in principle nonetheless.

Loves
stars, space, rain & clouds, night, cats & animals, moths, science, math, writing, history, culture, bread, fruit, noodles, vanilla ice cream, matcha boba, purple, black, green, pink, winter, cold, art, D&D, philosophy, sociology, psychology, astrology, geology, mythology, theology, ghosts, debates, weed, puzzles, tattoos & piercings, experimental (bad) music

Hates
heights, driving, cars, most bugs (plus intense orthopteraphobia), summer, heat, sunlight, crowds, small talk, insincerity, cheese, onions, alcohol, tobacco, caffeine, cologne, yellow, orange, lavender, traditions, oppression, manipulation, closed minded people, lack of empathy, bad faith arguments

Favorite Media

Games: pokemon, elder scrolls, hollow knight, silent hill, dishonored, solar ash, gris, divinity original sin 2, binding of isaac, rainbow six siege, rusty lake, portal

Movies n Shows: neo tokyo (1987), ghost in the shell (1995), angel's egg (1985), midsommar (2019), what dreams may come (1998), evangelion, kino's journey, boondocks, mushishi, samurai champloo, cowboy bebop, lain, sanrio

Books: frankenstein, crime & punishment, the book thief, the catcher in the rye, percy jackson pentalogy, animal farm, the divine comedy